I guess.....

I need to learn how to talk better .. dunno its stupid how trying to give an honest complement could give me the case of funk I find my self in .. I was trying to say I liked her for her outlook and the fact she was nice to know but she said I was talking "down " to her like she was stupid .. That wasn't my intent but she took it that way... and it firkin bothered me that I couldn't even do one thing right with these people .. is there a special way to give a complement to some one? The lady is funny interesting and has lots of qualities I admire in a person and she said I was talking down to her .. that's really stupid .. now that I think about it I should realize that women don't do complements well they are afraid to accept them.. I wasn't trying to pander to this woman I was trying to say thanks for being yourself but my bad she took the wrong way.. yeh I got put in my place .. guess my shit don't stink good enough yanno .. .. just sad really that this happens but as I sit here thinking and blogging I realize we do lose people skills when we "live" on the Internet .. is it because we don't have the body language to take our cues from or the eyes to watch as we talk? I dunno, how much do others read folks like that for cues in how they react to us & I do miss that bit of extra in my daily interchanges on line .. I loved the fact that with a vid camera I could have that ..but seems most folks are afraid to use them..why ? We used to sit down and enjoy having coffee or such in each others homes .. how is this camera thing any different? Is it the distances or the fact we really don't know each other? making friends takes effort it usually starts with a complement and a laugh .. only I guess I need to learn how to do that better yanno? I don't know; really I am just bummed is all.
Anyone want to teach me the art of talking better to others ?

self abuse.. sheesh never again

OMG have pity on me .. I abused myself by allowing the 12 old to have a sleepover party.. pre teen girls giggle and laugh in highpitched squeaky voices.. my ears hurt .. they go to bed at some ungodly hour only to bounce up bright eyed and bushy tailed at 5 am oh and they wake the rest of the house as well .. gah I want to go to sleep already and its only 10 am .. and the littleones are up ..nope no rest for me
what do you feed kids that dont like chocolate malt-o-meal sheesh the stay over doesnt "do" malt-o-meal not even chocolate.. okkk cold Pizza? oh no thanks doesnt like pineapple stuff .. humm wellllll what to feed em? oh cute the kid wants donuts .. the bakery is NOT opened today .. Nope not gonna drive to the store .. sooo now what .. oh yeh cake mix in the cuboards .. sure kids I can do that .. still havent had that first cup of coffee give me a minute please ... 20 minutes go by NOW I am awake .. where was I oh yeh cake ...good gawd they ate a whole 13x9 cake ..I didnt get any...musta been good cause they inhaled it by time I was pourning my second cuppa coffee. :: snickers to self:: the stay over kid went home with a huge sugar buzz.. hope her folks have fun with her..

Mirror mirror on the wall

?htiw gniyalp ma I tahw eziler ot ekat lliw ti gnol woh rednow htiw lla uoy esaet ot yot wen a yob hO
tuo siht erugif ot gnola uoy evael lliw I daer ot segap dna enim ot atad attog I llew neppah nac gnihtynapah ot ylekil si gnihtyna llafeerf ni dna llafeerf si siht rebmemer yrroS
?rebmemer yzarc uoy ekam ot dna nuf rof si siht annog ton wan ?rekcehc lleps esu naem uoy od tahW

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::Chuckles softly :: now wasnt that fun?

Humm, Pickles in more than just a sandwich..

Pickles, do you ever think about them or look at them in a diffrent way? Some folks do .. My friend Dawn does and oh my she is wickedly funny and snidley sly in her twists and turns of a pickled high. Hope you laugh as hard as I did when you read what she has to say about the wonders of a Pickle.

Pickle Song

Some sweet and some sourAll have the shape we love to

Munch, crunch and devour

Vinegar cures them

Makes flavor beyond compare

Heaven to savor

Slowly nibble them

Pickles IS as Pickles DOES

Pucker therapy

I love pickles, oh yesLove to touch, lick and caress

This pickle is YOU

Pickles are symbols

Have any of you surmised

This secret of mine?

Pickles have manhood

In their shape and design

Juicy seeds inside

Engendering lust

Hunger, desire and craving

For all things long-ish

For the "member" thatIt imitates in my mind

My mind so fertile

That all things long-ish

And of that diameter

Makes me romantic

Heart beating quickly

Thinking of silk-skinned hardness

Tasting of sweet salt

Then going back toPickles for generic talk

Those symbols I love.

I will talk of them

Like they are what I want most

But they're not at all.

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Whoa Dawnie thats to much .. Girl you have a wonderful way of presenting a pickle ..THANKS!

Oh good morning world!

I got to thinking about how and where I want this blog : this newely created slice of me to go.. I got up this morning and thought well? and the "well" looked back and snickered ... DAMN now thats bad isnt it? .. At a loss because I really dont want to be a flame spewing anti war diss the gov type anymore.. OH dont get me wrong I havent changed at all.. I have how ever sunk to a eye rolling disgust of my goverment and the fool in charge.. respect must be earned and those chickenhawks and liars aint gonna get it from me. Not to say I dont have lots to say about the way they do stuff but I got other places to vent and shake my finger from.
Food? naw to that as well .. I am on a perpetual diet.. coffee and chocolate there is no room for food these days, besides I got a big enough ass anyways... my kids say I am one to begin with..
* ponders * humm must be why I vote a mostly democratic ticket these days .. yanno I used to be a republican yep for years & years untill I fell on hard times and learned a few major lessons..
Music? pass on that to for the most part .. its over done at other places and theres to many kids who know to little of the good stuff .. I keep that to myself as well...
OH I know "pet peeves" thats not one that I have toyed with befor.. I got alot of em to .. the best ones of course come from my own fubars .. yanno the ones about survay says you get a freebie and so ya play and play and play and no end insight? and then just as you give up the last page wants you to buy just one of the offering .. .. now how the flip did that get there? all's I wanted was my free bigscreen SHEESH! oh and because I screwed up and gave my phone number I will be treated to ongoing sales calls at 7 AM from a recording .. OMG the things I do to make my life hell at times. My own fault of course but I do take it out on the few unlucky salesmen who try so hard to be pleseant inspite of my rudeness . They do pretty good for the most part no matter what I say.. I think maybe one or two has hung up on me when I tell em some strange shit about how my blow up dollie got stolen and her antomincally correct blow up SO is still greiveing. I think those were the folks who wanted me to donate to the newest scam by the 700 club or to help buy ol' fartwell a new suit to preach in.. Hell I dont remember .. I just try to brighten MY DAY since those idiots almost ruined it by calling me at the butt crack of dawn . They deserve what they get if I dont have my glass's on and a cup of coffee in my hand befor the phone rings. I am sure you understand my point quite well.
Well enough of this mornings spew and hurbis Its freefall time and I gotta make an effort someplace today.. ya'll have a good day and SMILE they be so busy wondering why ya smilling at em they wont look back at yer arse!

Fresh page

well now a fresh start, a new blog I have learned alot from my first blogging attempts. Hey what can I say for myself? I had to learn someplace didnt I? I read a book today that said.. even whores were once virgins and yanno I kinda think bloggers are that way to. we try many things and edit and reshape and often move our muse to better pastures and always hope for better things. I think here I will just let my feelings and thoughts flow into the true meaning of freefall and enjoy the things that come forth. Poetry and such says alot about a blogger, Some good some bad but in the end its all planted and covered with more of the same.. so join me a little while and see where the ideas take us as I begin the freefall of this new blog